i know many of you will say this post is totally useless without pictures

but my front door

is like yours

an illusion that offers me, mentally, the perception that with a lock and key i am protected, secure, safe

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as many of you know i lost the front door key
searched everywhere for it

my daughter searched too

we emptied my purse and went through the contents

no key

so i decided to put in a new lock set
how hard could that be?

i bought one i liked and brough it home

the old lock came out easily

the new lockset would not come out of the package

it was screwed in the screw was tightened hard

brought it back to lowes to see if they could get it out of the package

it took them an hour - i watched - they guy really struggled and used all kinds of tools -

i brought it home sans packaging

but new locksets DID not fit
the holes in the metal door did not line up

tried to put old lockset back in
only it broke into pieces
so i bought a new drill bit for metal doors
tried to drill a hole
new metal bit would not cut thru the metal door

in fact the kick back sent me flying into the stairwell

returned new lockset to lowes

thye were good about taking it back

peiced what i could of the old lock and after many hours of trying i was only able to get handle in so i could open and close the door
no lock

so i used duck tape to cover the holes

went on ebay and found a door - same age as my house and a mortise and tendon lock set

bought the old door
with the help and love of a friend

(oh and the keys to the lock showed up - on top of all things in my purse)

and the lock
door arrived 2 weeks late
and yes you guessed it the lock came with it but no key
it was forgotten

a few more weeks and the
key and spare arrived

yep
wrong key neither key or spare fit
called the seller and sent back lockset to have new key made
key arrived at sellers
but he was not home
it went to post office

i should have checked on it

anyway the seller was in another state and his truck broke down

he never got the key to the locksmith

it is still at the postoffice

and the seller
cant get home until the truck parts come in

door was installed this week

without the lockset

i bought new deadbolt to at least lock the door
deadbolt installed
now door will lock but wind blows it open if it is not locked because there is no door knob
still waiting on lockset

in the meantime i decided i needed to have additional keys made
1 for neighbor
1 for my daughter
but new deadbolt key was not able to be made
went to 3 places
and none could make it
they tried
but the machine wouldnt cut the teeth
kept skipping cut outs

so here i am waiting on the lockset from the seller

looking for someone to copy a deadbolt key

waiting and  knowing that a good wind will leave my house wide open (and cold -lol)

last interesting thing
dogs did not bark or get upset when the door installer came to the house
and they did not jump up on the new door
something they always do when they sense someone coming to the door

so anyone for pie

making apple pie today

energy for today

well i woke up from a series of nightmares with a migraine

and too much to do

but i am not going to let it slow me down

i have my affirmation for the day

sent by a friend with love…

the universe wants us to be prosperous spirit, soul, & body
I am earning all i need for the life i want  and I offer thanks for it
for it enables me to freely express myself
as I bring great value to the lives of others
I remain open to receive direction regarding how I may correct this process
through my thoughts, words, and actions to get the most from my efforts
for the highest and best for all.
my body is renewed daily and people actually see me growing younger
every cell every tissue every organ of my body function to the perfection
in which my creator intended designed and created them to function
every system of my entire being spirit soul and body
functions perfectly in total and complete harmony with all of the laws
which govern every realm of my existence
goodness and mercy follow me all the days of my life
the angels encamp round about me to protect me in all my ways
the eyes of my understanding are continually being enlightened
in order that i may fully perceive and embrace truth
wisdom is granted unto me so that i may make a practical application
of that revealed truth to my life and effectively communicate that
truth to others
I thank you that my understanding is continually stretched
in order that i may comprehend the fulness of your 4 dimensional love
which far surpasses natural human understanding

now that is much better than pie

that is a great thought full of positive energy. No excuses or apologies for the past just here I am. This is me and this is what i want!

Let me bring over a banana pie and milk and let’s talk …

yesterday i went to my girlfriend’s. she was upset. the man she loved had done something that showed that he was scared and didnt trust her or the relationship. He revealed this to others and it hurt. We sat around and ate the frosting off a carrot cake and drank water and talk about how she would bring up the conversation on trust and their relationship.

her first reaction was to just run away and not face it. my first was to sucker punch the guy. but i think we both realized that even if it was going to hard for her she needed to find out where the panic came from and see if she could live with his growing pains.

where will they go from here and can they give it their full attention? i dont know.

i know that for me my growth will come as i chose what i want and go for it with all that i am.

i have always thought of myself as a word junkie. I dont mean say that I have a huge vocab. In fact it is probably lacking. What i mean is that i dont just hear the words as they are said but i take to heart the ture meaning of the words used. this can sometimes upset or confuse my friends and loved ones. Sometimes it appears as though I am actually pulling some magical suppressed thought out of their heads that they hadnt realized they were thinking but when brought to the light of day they admit it was their true feelings.

so lately i have been surrounding myself with positive affirmation, tapping methods and words of affirmation to open up the possibilities to remove the negative thoughts that hinder i say it is working perhaps it is psychosomatic…but then again maybe psychosomatic is the affirmation of taking to heart certain  words

this being friday the 13th - a day some fear for the bad luck they feelit may bring i ask you to look at this a bit harder - dont attract negative things to yourself.

again today I am borrowing from susan james

“For Your Energy Stream…..Your Daily Dose of: Energy!” ”

I understand the power & meaning of my thoughts & words, and I use them accordingly to design my life.

How will you redesign your thinking/life today?

have been rages about the system, life, unfair practices.

I decided all that has done is frustrate me. I need a postive approach. yes there are things wrong but if i only present the probelm and no hope for solution then what good is it. it is like a bartender that gets drunk.

so today i am not serving up the usual pie and coffee. .. today it is cream of wheat some Vitamin B a smile and a bit of postivie energy to go with it

today from susan james

Your Daily Dose of: *Energy!*
I seek only my higher good always, & program myself with
only what I intend to experience. I do this verbally, and
consciously, and continually. I Am My Own Master.
And it is by the movement of my thoughts & heart that
I direct this energy.

namaste

This weekend my daughter baked chocolate chip cookies and Thor dug up my old roses and transplanted them to the backyard where they can wind their way around, over and through the old white painted picket fence. I am very excited about that. I love houses that have secret and beautiful vignettes. Like images from house and garden.

i don’t really have much luck with flowers or plants but iris, roses, peonies and wild onions do very well for me

I woke to a migraine today. Great way to start the day. My roommate, lets call him Thor came into the kitchen with a bucket. He was going to wash the decking right outside the back door so it could be painted.

Something he probably should have done yesterday because it is going to rain in a few hours. i watched as he put the bucket in the kitchen sink, turned on the water and then tested it with his hand. it must have been cold because he pushed the faucet to the left right over the bag of garbage to go out.

Yes you guessed it he filled the plastic bag with water.Now anyone else would have seen their mistake and pushed the faucet back over the bucket but in his head, i am guessing here, he didn’t want the cold water in the bucket so he didn’t move it.

As i stood there watching i must have scowled because he turned and saw my face and realized that the garbage bag filling with cold water wasn’t something that please me. that is when he panicked because he didnt want the cold water in the bucket and there wasn’t any other place, in his mind to push the faucet.

all i could do was shake my head and wonder why.

or more importantly how

how do i idiot proof my life?

any suggestions? i figure this is a 2 slices of pie and a glass of milk question.

i read today that as media conglomerates struggle - cut costs and employees the CEOs salaries increase.

the statistics say that the average CEO’s salary was $27 million last year and that equity averaged a decline of approximately 70 percent.

Why is this bleeding companies dry mentality allowed. Why are these men and women given so much power?

where is the common sense in that.

I was brought up top believe in old fashion Hollywood movie fairy tales where company ceos had a pride in their company and their employees that making a better than good product and giving back in the way of a living wage and decent working conditions was the norm.

If a company asks for a handout
if it is struggling
then the ceo’s should be the first to scarfice

but they don’t/ won’t

who do they have to look up to for a moral compass?
not our politicians that bleed us dry and still take pay raises, pensions and other luxuries that are incompenhesible to the average US citizen.

not our regilous leaders
that bleed the uneducated and  underprivileged into giving their last dollar so that the church can expand their real estate ventures

probably not mom and dad because they struggled to make their way in a better time when people had 1 job, one house for life and lived within their means

perhaps every executive should be made to live on the average single mother’s salary for 3 months
put together meals, pay bills keep a roof over their heads so that when they take those luxury meetings, those company cars, that health benefits and gym memberships they feel just a bit of a twinge of guilt.

what happens to people when they enter into a committed relationship?

When does the romance stop?

the love letters?

the poems?

the late night talks?

when does it get replaced with indifference and jokes and talks about the bills?

Obviously LIFE interrupts and maybe each sees in the others eyes a truer reflection of who they are. And  in doing so turn away.

he had the most beautiful eyes,

such long lashes

and a mouth like mine.

and when he looked at me it was like a flood of LOVE and ADORATION covered me.

but once the boxes were unpacked and the closet floor filled with his shoes, my shoes - clothes touching clothes, it began to feel different!

okay no pie today

cinnamon toast the old fashion way like momma used  to make

yesterday as i felt myself drowning for the 100th time in as many days

i called out for help

and the universe answered

According to Mama Gena’s school of womanly arts
Depression is the first sign that something isn’t working
Isn’t living up to a person’s ideals
And it is Time for a change
Only most of us chose to treat this not as a wake up call but as a snooze button and we keep hitting snooze until it becomes a huge black hole

For me I go through cycles
Put a bandaide fix on it
Which makes me happy for a moment
Then watch as it slowly unsticks
And puts me right back into the murk of it all

i am tied of the murk

of fighting the battleon grounds that are unfamilair

they dont workfor me

i tried to explainthat to  successful men

but the answers i got

although sound

we not answers i could put in place

so how to do it my way

how to stay true to the vision

and move forward

maybe no one has the answe ror maybe it is as simple

or hard as mama gena states

but today i am going to find out
Today I am taking her advice
Mama gena
Taking a hot bath
Lighting a few candles
eating  cinnamon toast
And finding where the simple pleasure takes me

Although this isn’t an promo for mama gena, I personally think her workshops are too pricy,

I will let you know how it all pans out
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